Having a relatively relaxed day today didn't fit well into my constantly busy life, and while it felt excellent, it also felt a little bit strange. Deciding to postpone writing essays, poems, reading, and other things for various different professors, I decided to sleep, be lazy, mess around online, and go back to watch some of my early Ellusionist DVDs just for the hell of it.
I popped in How to Do Street Magic and Crash Course 1, two of the DVDs that got me seriously back into magic years ago, and let the memories completely take over my mind. Even though it isn't the first time I've watched these videos since "the new beginning" it's been a while. Needless to say, it was a very nostalgic feeling.
Even though I feel like I have mastered the material presented in the videos, I learned a lot today. I was taken back Christmas Carol style to the time when I was beginning to understand how important magic was to me. I didn't only have memories of watching the videos, but of the surrounding time and performances as well. When I look at myself in regards to my magic today I see things like: worrying that exposure is rampant, worrying about too many young kids putting sloppy videos on youtube, not having time to practice, etc...It's always negative. Being taken back I can once again feel like I did when I found this place.
I usually look down on people posting messages to Brad on the forums but I need to say that today I remembered why you inspired me so much Brad. Your interest in the subject, fun attitude, and talent in regards to magic and teaching make it a pleasure to watch the Ellusionist classics, even when I feel like I have already mastered the material.
Things have changed in the magic world guys, some for better, some for worse, but nothing serious. I think we tend to blow problems far out of proportion when it comes to magic. If you aren't feeling the best about what you do, take a second to step back to the time when you were starting. If you can get back into what you were thinking then; what motivated you to start or continue magic, you will remember why it's so important to you.